hi i have depression, lets talk about it. anyone else out there have this tragic blessing?

...I'm fairly sure he was being sardonic in calling it a blessing.

Well, I got stuck with the bipolar, which fits the 'tragic blessing' definition. I'm on the up right now which is great, I've slept about two 'nights' in the last week and I can think really fast, have heaps of focus, energy and can learn and remember everything incredibly easily. I can play songs I've never learned and draw complex pictures and be happy and social and everything is good.

Downside is every time you hit a low it pretty much feels like the world is ending, you just wanna cry, not leave the house, see anyone, do anything and your brain feels like you're thinking through mush, and everything has the joy sucked out of it. Doesn't exactly mesh well with a structured life and all that.

Generally I got a handle on it tho, so I'm not as bad as some people have it, it's just both peaks that you gotta watch out for.

I know it can really suck tho, so for people who have to put up with it.

Yeah, I have depression too! I wouldn't really call it a blessing though haha. Aside from the fact that it makes me think deeply about things and write a lot of poetry, it's a burden most of the time. But I think the thing about pain is you can let it bring you down or lift you up, that sounds really cheesy but yeah. I'm really sad most of the time but I don't want to let it ruin my life, I want to use it to relate to the pain other people have and learn from it so I can help them better.

Seems like you're crying for attention far more often.

No haha I do, sorry, I just edited that post right after I posted it cause I realized I was being way too defensive. He was asking other people if they were depressed though, not just posting about his own.

"Boys, boys! We can settle this like reasonable and sexy teenagers."

Everyone has bad days, sometimes bad seasons. The people I've met who have been clinically diagnosed with depression are those who reached the point where they could not find a reason to get out of bed in the mornings, were experiencing suicide ideation, etc.

Not trying to be a douchebag and yell at you for "not really having depression". The term is a bit overused though. You're a teenager, you're pretty much required to feel sad and lonely from time to time. So, have you been diagnosed with depression/take medication, or are you just down?

Ehh, i have depression it sucks. I've had 3 very close family members pass away in the last year. Cancer mostly, so aside from being depressed i also have turned into a hypochondriac and think i have cancer all the time. My Doctor thinks im going crazy, and well i believe i am too. But im not giving up, life always gets complicated. It has its highs and lows and very bad moments but i wouldn't miss any of it. Maybe montage through some of it honestly but i guess all that's happened has made me who i am today. So i guess I'm a Depressed optimist... oxymoron.

I have depression, it runs in my family and hit me pretty hard, not as a hard as some but it still hurts. I wake up in the morning and fight the desire to simply just close my eyes and lay there for the rest of my life. Sometimes I simply have to stop and fight through the idea of letting myself die, its tiresome and I don't enjoy it. I honestly should be taking meds and going to therapy but both of those things are expensive and I can't bring myself to take anything that changes my personality nor talk to anyone about things I want to keep secret. So I guess I'm a depressed person in the closet?

lol dude chill out.
cant i be horny and depressed? they kinda go hand in hand.
and some day ill list out my problems, but i just dont really feel open enough/have enough time to talk about them right now.
im not looking for sympathy, im not looking for attention, im just wanting to have civilized talk about this.
also, i called it a blessing for several reasons. one is irony. two is sometimes it feels like a blessing. i feel like im a lot smarter than me on meds when im off, it just feels like i can realize things about situations that i cant when im "normal" (ps, i havent gotten to normal yet, we are still adjusting the medication levels)

but yeah. if u just wanna bash on ppl, go somewhere else, this thread is for me to talk to other people who share these issues.

i take medication, and my doctor gave me a general evaluation and deemed me having to take meds, and we are trying to get me to a psychoanalyst to define what it is exactly that i have, and i have been sent to the hospital for suicide related things, and im on the schools "watch out for this kid" list.

At least you're the fun bipolar, and not the one in which you are either sad or angry all the time for no reason. Or both at the same time.


On topic: There is a difference between being actually depressed and just hormonal.


Lonely, maybe. Usually depressed people have no motivation to even exist, let alone have enough libido to care about bothering to maybe put up the effort to masturbate.

Do you happen to be on amphetamines of some sort...?

Well, aren't you a lucky exception. Absolutely all of the antidepressants I have tried have absolutely butchered my libido.