Disclaimer, I haven't been been very active on the site over the last two years, every month I come and go but I never really stay, might try and get a little more active again. coming out to family - recent
So I was bored and was looking through my old cringly threads, came across this, so I thought I would update it again to bore you all to death when with pathetic existion. Before I get started I just wanted to tell you little bit about my brother and sister; my brother has always called me gay, all my life he has winded me up and always said horrible things to me and as you would expect not the most PC person alive. While my sister has always supported me and always wanted best for me and she's the most PC person I know, always going to gay events and stuff like that. Can you guess who I told first?
So about 6 months ago my brother came to my house and was very drunk, I was home alone and we were having a deep conversation about life and crap. Then he asked me if I was gay, which I didn't know how to response because I made a promise to myself from now on if anyone asked I would never say no. So he asked again and I still didn't say anything and then there was this spark in me and i just thought fuck it and said yes, he was surprised at first and asked me many questions about it, then he started crying, which was all emotional because he felt bad of how he has treated me over life, all the times he called gay, puff and stuff on these lines, he said he loved me and all that shit. So yeah that wasn't too bad I guess.
Anyway it was the Saturday night just gone and there was family party, and this is where my sister found out, I jokely said to my sister when are you going to have a baby and she said when are you going to come out as gay which was one savage response if I say so. Anyway my brother and I was very drunk and he called me puff again which later he realised he said, and felt really bad again. He then said I need to tell people or at least my sister, I said I couldn't so he did it for me and told her. She said she didn't care and it isnt a big deal for us but it is for me, and said all that crap which I hope most of us have been told or heard already.
So yeah they both think I should tell my mum but that's way too much effort and I havent even considered telling anyone else in the family yet.. but yeah talking about my sexuality is probably the weakest point of me because I still don't think I have accepted myself yet but I have... my mind is very complex on my sexuality, and I don't think I could ever explain how I truely feel. That's why I should probably return back to GTF to try and build up my condfience on telling people because I just can't say "I am gay" ' not even in the mirror. This is really bad I should have grown out of this by now but I still haven't. Telling friends - two years ago (old thread)Update 2#
It's been awhile since I've last updated, maybe it's because i'm so lazy to write it up. Anyway around 30 people in the school know now. I didn't come out to any of them since I can't say the words, I just tell my friends to tell them or talk really loud about it, and let them listen. The main is nothing has changed. I'm still treated the same as I was before. There's also much more banter between me and my mates now
and I don't understand why I made such a big fuss over it now. I've had one slight problem with my old best friend, she keeps saying you're confused and I can't imagine you gay, and asked me really awkward questions... Anyway that don't matter apart from that shehasn't treated me any differently either.
I'm also really surprised how slow it's spreading around the school, people started to find out on the 16th of February and it's nearly 2 months later... The people who don't know are the popular people in our school. The thing is I want them to know since then that guy I always talk about will find out i'm gay, and if he does like me then maybe he'll try and talk to me, but the thing is i don't know how they're gonna find out since no one gives a shit (I guess that's a really good thing) and i don't really know many people in their group. Update 1#
When I first came out to Amy I didn't want any else to know. So we came up with a plan to say I liked a girl at my school. So Amy told her bf about the girl I pretend to liked and he started telling people. It backfired because it was starting to get really annoying. No matter how much I said I didn't like her none of them believed me and carried on saying I liked her. The next day I told Amy it's a bad idea and shes needs to tell her bf it's not true.
Next time Amy and her bf were together, Amy said "George doesn't like that girl you know" her bf said "yeah he does, I know he does." She then replied saying "No seriously I know he doesn't." He then replied saying "How do you know" Amy didnt say anything so he PUSH HER AGAINST A WALL (He's a fucking prick) and said he said "how don't you know!", she still didn't say anything, then he said "he's gay ain't he" and she then replied back "If you tell anyone i'll kill you and fall out with you. He then said "I don't care anyway and whys he worried, I'll tell people everyone knows his gay and he dosen't want to come out, plus it's like the fashion now anyway" (Btw i'm quoting these) Then after saying that the first thing he did was text his best mate saying George is gay and the guy replied back saying he didn't care.
So a few days later they go into town with my friends just let me explain how my friendship group works, there're 10 lads including me 5 of them are my best friends and the other 4 (Amy's bf is in this group) i'm not really close to they have only recently joined our group. Anyway Amy, one of my best mates and the 4 people i'm not very close to went into town, (funny enough i wasn't invited) and they were just messing about and Amy slapped Jack as a joke and guess what he did.. He told them all i'm gay because he knows if more people know i'll fall out with Amy, so now 4 other people know about me and he didn't make any promises for them not to tell anyone.
So now it's inevitable it's going to spread and because of this. I told my other girl best friend who goes to my school about me because she's gonna find out anyway, and she was very supportive and didn't really care about it.. (her reaction was quite boring
.) I've also haven't had school all week so it's gonna be very awkward on Monday.. But that's the drama so far and i'll update whats happens Monday.. Old Post
She reacted very and only asked very few embarrassing questions..
If you can't see
Amy: Are you gay
Me: you cheeky bitch
Amy: is that not it
Me: But Yes
Amy: You're gay.
Amy: omg omg omg.
Me: I swear I am
Me: Amy listen everything I've ever said